"How Dare I.." ( Original Poem)
I was fourteen and I wanted so badly to be seen
I wanted the boys of my age to know I existed
That I am not as awkward as I may come off to be
because I wanted to be taken seriously
Now I am twenty-two and can hardly stand the tune
Ya know, "hey beautiful" *whistle* "have a good day"
I never know what to say
So I give the "fuck off" look
and go my way.. Oh but, How dare I
How Dare I think to deeply into the "compliments" they give me
How Dare I try to make sense of their intentions
And their perverted attention
How dare I make men out to be animals..
Boys will be boys right?
So How Dare I speak up
With this urge to fight
Oh but How Dare I
He was just admiring me,
So How Dare I not appreciate his flirting
Saying he loves shy girls
and that I am really pretty
Or How Dare I slap his hand..
How Dare I not submit to him touching my breast
because I asked for it right?
My tank top and shorts was a clear invitation
So its not his fault for not knocking
Before his abrupt invasion
Oh but How Dare I feel uncomfortable
We were kissing, I mean what was I expecting..
Oh but How Dare I,
Make the decision to still wake up everyday
With this God given confidence that I fight to portray
How Dare I set my sights on my true identity
.. In Him, In Christ.
Hey Friends! If you got to this part, thank you so much for reading. I feel like I haven't posted one of my poems in awhile. " How Dare I" is a poem I recently wrote after an interaction I had that sparked up anger and insecurities. Plus you know me, I have to write out ALL my emotions lol.
Thank you again for reading! Comment below your thoughts? Can you relate in some way?
Nikki O. x