BeBrave Story #7: Shauna Claire
Hey Everyone, today I am sharing with you #BeBrave Story #7! Beauty and Fashion blogger Shauna Claire from the blog Goddess Guide is sharing her journey on recieving her PTSD diagnosis and how life for her has been since then. I can't wait for you all to read her story and be encouraged to get the help that you deserve and never give up.
Also can we take a moment to acknowledge the fact that Shauna Claire looks like she can be on the front cover of a celebrity magazine! Read more about the writing Shauna does after this post and check out her social medias below! ( Her Instagram is Ah-mazing)
My road to a PTSD diagnosis wasn't a straightforward one, nor of a conventional avenue. My journey with mental health began with visiting my doctor and asking him about why it was so difficult for me to eat different foods, and why I would panic around food in general. I didn't feel I had an eating disorder because I didn't have any kind of body dysmorphia and I wasn't actively trying to restrict my food. And although I am aware that not all eating disorders manifest in that way, I just didn't feel that an eating disorder was my main problem, if that makes any sense?
Nevertheless he told me I most likely had an eating disorder and referred me to a counselling clinic that specifically dealt with eating disorders. I was 16 at the time, and immediately when I saw a psychiatrist for a diagnosis, she told me I had Generalised Anxiety Disorder that had manifested through Selective Eating Disorder. I accepted this at the time, because I didn't really have much else to go on. Who was I to argue with a professional?
From here I was sent for Cognitive Analytical Therapy. And I was there for two years. Honestly, it really didn't help that much. Of course it really helped me understand how anxiety works, how it arises and the biologic explanation behind it, but I wasn't really getting any better. I just knew what what happening to me, but I had no idea how to actively combat it. Eventually what I ended up doing was suppressing my anxiety and trying to go on with my life. Of course, this didn't help. I became someone I really didn't like; defensive, arrogant, and unbalanced. I avoided social situations at all costs and developed really unhealthy coping mechanisms. Perfectionism flared up hugely then, and not only was I not good enough, but no one around me was good enough. I became really unhappy and strayed completely off my own course.
Symptoms of PTSD include flashbacks and/or nightmares about the traumatic event, emotional numbness, avoidance of people and certain places, difficulty sleeping and concentrating, being very easily angered, being a "jumpy" person e.g. jumping at loud noises or sudden movements etc, anxiety and depression.
Since this diagnosis, I have found that my progress and healing is starting to come on in leaps and bounds. I've been able to shed that part of me that I developed as a defense mechanism and find my true self again, and spirituality has really aided my therapy.
It's absolutely the hardest thing I've ever gone through in my life, and sometimes the healing is actually harder than the trauma itself, but it's worth it. I encourage everybody to go and ask for help if you need it, and sometimes a diagnosis can help everything fall into place.
ABOUT SHAUNA CLAIRE
Shauna is a 21 year old Beauty and Fashion blogger and vlogger. Through her writing and youtube videos she aims to help her viewers live a more ethereal and magical life. She is a reader and all around free spirit. Make sure to check out her social media as she takes you through lifestyle, fashion, beauty, travel and lots more!
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Thank you Shauna for Being Brave sharing your story! (: