BeBrave Story #7: Shauna Claire


Hey Everyone, today I am sharing with you #BeBrave Story #7! Beauty and Fashion blogger Shauna Claire from the blog Goddess Guide is sharing her journey on recieving her PTSD diagnosis and how life for her has been since then. I can't wait for you all to read her story and be encouraged to get the help that you deserve and never give up.

Also can we take a moment to acknowledge the fact that Shauna Claire looks like she can be on the front cover of a celebrity magazine! Read more about the writing Shauna does after this post and check out her social medias below! ( Her Instagram is Ah-mazing)






My road to a PTSD diagnosis wasn't a straightforward one, nor of a conventional avenue. My journey with mental health began with visiting my doctor and asking him about why it was so difficult for me to eat different foods, and why I would panic around food in general. I didn't feel I had an eating disorder because I didn't have any kind of body dysmorphia and I wasn't actively trying to restrict my food. And although I am aware that not all eating disorders manifest in that way, I just didn't feel that an eating disorder was my main problem, if that makes any sense?

Nevertheless he told me I most likely had an eating disorder and referred me to a counselling clinic that specifically dealt with eating disorders. I was 16 at the time, and immediately when I saw a psychiatrist for a diagnosis, she told me I had Generalised Anxiety Disorder that had manifested through Selective Eating Disorder. I accepted this at the time, because I didn't really have much else to go on. Who was I to argue with a professional?

From here I was sent for Cognitive Analytical Therapy. And I was there for two years. Honestly, it really didn't help that much. Of course it really helped me understand how anxiety works, how it arises and the biologic explanation behind it, but I wasn't really getting any better. I just knew what what happening to me, but I had no idea how to actively combat it. Eventually what I ended up doing was suppressing my anxiety and trying to go on with my life. Of course, this didn't help. I became someone I really didn't like; defensive, arrogant, and unbalanced. I avoided social situations at all costs and developed really unhealthy coping mechanisms. Perfectionism flared up hugely then, and not only was I not good enough, but no one around me was good enough. I became really unhappy and strayed completely off my own course.






At the time, I was also going through a trauma that I'm really not ready to talk about. Maybe I will be someday, but I just can't bring myself to talk about it yet, and I hope you can accept that. It wasn't for another two years that I ended up going back to therapy, this time with a new therapist in a different environment. The kind of therapy I'm in is called psychodynamic psychotherapy, and it has helped me more than I can ever explain. I finally received a diagnosis that made sense, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It was the only diagnosis that has ever, ever made me think "yes!! That's exactly it. Thank god it's something." Leading up to that I had been told I had anxiety, depression, OCD, social anxiety and an eating disorder, and it was the most terrifying thing because I was thinking "how do I have all of these?!" But with PTSD, there are elements of all of those that have manifested and it's reassuring to know that through therapy I can hugely reduce how PTSD affects my life.

Symptoms of PTSD include flashbacks and/or nightmares about the traumatic event, emotional numbness, avoidance of people and certain places, difficulty sleeping and concentrating, being very easily angered, being a "jumpy" person e.g. jumping at loud noises or sudden movements etc, anxiety and depression.

Since this diagnosis, I have found that my progress and healing is starting to come on in leaps and bounds. I've been able to shed that part of me that I developed as a defense mechanism and find my true self again, and spirituality has really aided my therapy.

It's absolutely the hardest thing I've ever gone through in my life, and sometimes the healing is actually harder than the trauma itself, but it's worth it. I encourage everybody to go and ask for help if you need it, and sometimes a diagnosis can help everything fall into place.





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ABOUT SHAUNA CLAIRE

       Shauna is a 21 year old Beauty and Fashion blogger and vlogger. Through her writing and youtube videos she aims to help her viewers live a more ethereal and magical life. She is a reader and all around free spirit. Make sure to check out her social media as she takes you through lifestyle, fashion, beauty, travel and lots more!



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BLOG   http://goddessguide.co.uk/
YOUTUBE  https://www.youtube.com/c/ShaunaClaire
INSTAGRAM https://www.instagram.com/shaunaclairegg/
TWITTER  https://twitter.com/ShaunaClaireGG




Thank you Shauna for Being Brave sharing your story! (:





Nikki O.

Comments

  1. Wowww Shauna, you're so beautiful! I am so glad that you finally got the right diagnosis, and that you're progressing and healing. I have a generalised anxiety disorder and, like you, even though I know about the biological basis of it etc, I haven't really found it very helpful. Hopefully I will get the help that I need one day.
    Hayley x
    Lifethroughtsg.com

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  2. It’s great that you finally got a real diagnosis - only after a diagnosis can you finally begin to recover! It’s difficult when you face misdiagnosis as well, but you have to push through until you find an explanation that you feel is correct.. 🙊

    Andi | www.andthenzen.co.uk ✨

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