" Fear Not.." Have Peace In The Midst Of Chaos
I woke up on Monday morning after a rough Sunday night reciting to myself, "its a new day" "yesterday was the past" "focus on the present". As I was hyping myself up in the bathroom in front of the mirror I picked up my phone and started scrolling through Instagram. Suddenly I started seeing post after post "pray for Vegas" "RIP to the 58 people killed in Vegas" "What's wrong with our country, such a tragedy" I was confused for a second and totally oblivious, so I searched up Las Vegas to see what all the condolesences was about. That is when I saw the news.. "Shooting at Las Vegas Concert Last Night; 58 killed & hundreds injured" The first thing I said to myself was Dear God, didn't we just have a natural disaster hit Puerto Rico? How much more tragedy can this world take?"
I started to feel a sense of fear crawl on me, it wasn't like that small anxiety you get when you are about to start a new job, or head into your first day of school and classes. No, it was a fear that felt all to familiar. I did not want to worry my family so I always kept that silent fear to myself in which at one put kept me up all night.
It was the fear I had last year when Christina Grimmie was shot at her concert and around the same time and place a gay night club shooting occurred in Orlando which became one of the biggest shootings in our country. It was the fear I got when Altron Sterling a black man and father was shot senselessly by police while selling CD's to make a living. These events all happened so close to one another that I remember always feeling uneasy during that time and shaking when my dad would be running late from work. We are all not immune from the violence in this world, it could happen to anyone but during that time all I could think about was my loved ones and their safety.
I cant help but think about one of my favorite Christian apologist who recently past away last month from aggressive stomach cancer. He kept vlogs up on YouTube during his fight. There was something he said in one of his vlogs that has really stuck with me. When he was on his hospital bed he expressed that he is struggling with where his faith is suppose to be at this point? Is there a certain level of faith he is suppose to have at this moment in his life? His conclusion was No. God sees him where he is at, and God comes beside him regardless of how big or small his faith is.
I know what a lot of us are feeling at this moment is fear, anger, pain, numbness, exhaustion in the midst of all the chaos in the world it is hard not to question God. It is hard not to wonder Lord, where are you in all of this?
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not be afraid" John 14:27
Come to the father with all of it. The anger, pain, fear, numbness. All. Of. It. And allow him to meet you where you are at during this time. I am literally writing this after I just finished venting to a really good friend of mine about the frustration I have with the world and why bad things are happening to the most innocent people. But there was a simple yet profound statement she said that I have heard several times but for some reason forgot.. " The God We Serve Is A Just God".
"Say to those with fearful hearts; be strong, do not fear, your God will come, he will come will vengeance, with divine retribution, he will come to save you" Isaiah 35:4
God doesn't turn a blind eye to the pain and chaos of the world. He is the only one that knows the heart of the shooter and has judged him accordingly. God knows each and every person that was injured and/or murdered and is using this tragedy to ultimately bring them closer to him.
If God says over 100 times in the bible "Fear Not.." he must mean it.
I don't know about you but I am going to trust the creator of the universe and lean on his promises that "all good things work together for the good of those who love him" Romans 8:28. Will you join me in emerging in peace and love himself [ Our Father ] during these time?
Lots of Love,