Showing posts from September, 2017

I Hate Having A Crush Pt 1

Okay hate is a strong word, maybe more like strongly dislike.

I don't know about you, but having feelings for someone, getting butterflies, being vulnerable emotionally, spiritually, physically etc scares the life out of me. Just the fact that if you want a friendship to progress into something more, you have to be willing to put yourself out there and be ready for the possibility of rejection and the thought of that makes me cringe. Liking someone and trying to figure out how to go about expressing yourself to the person or wanting to just simply tell the person how great they are without coming off weird or creepy is so complicated.

Can you guess why I am ranting about such a thing? Yes, you may have already guessed it. I have a crush on someone.

The frustrating thing is that I don't even know how these feelings even developed. I only met this person towards the beginning of this year because we had a class together and then became friends. We basically hung out in similar…