We are going to call this guy "Leo".
Leo definitely felt like the one. I mean he was basically my best guy friend, maybe just a little more time and it could of blossomed into something. ( Thank God it did not). We were comfortable around each other, we talked every single day. We trusted each other and we were suckers for each other's jokes. I was hooked, it was basically everything I wanted with a guy: Comfort. Trust. Communication. and Humor.
Here is where things got a little messy..
He loved complimenting me one day but then the next day when life was just not going his way he would say hurtful things to me:
" You are Pretty but not that Pretty" (I actually considered that one of the nicer comments)... He would compare me to other girls, and his Tumblr was filled with naked chicks. It destroyed how I viewed myself and I started to find myself doing whatever I could to make sure I kept his attention and fit his standards.
That is where the true problem is!
The minute you find yourself doing whatever you can to please another person, keep their attention, or fit their standards, you start hurting yourself emotionally, mentally and spiritually. My favorite singer Christina Grimmie ( RIP sweet angel) once said, " Confidence has nothing to do with ' when they like me' but ' I will be fine if they don't'.
That quote is so true and I wish I had understood this 6 months ago, trust me it would of saved me a lot of tears. If no one has ever told you this, let me be the first to tell you that your confidence, value and self worth is not determined by whether the guy you like thinks your skinny enough or not. Please, if "He" does not like "You" for YOU, do not waste your time. Do not waste your time with someone who fails to bring you up in every aspect of your life.
You Are So Worthy of Love by Jessica Monique